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I was really depressed for the whole week, I can't eat much (1 meal for a day), unending flowing of tears, lethargic consciousness at daytime, stabbing pain in the chest, sleepless nights... every painful event imaginable yet after hearing today's mass I can really say that God gave me an answer.
I'm physically ill (fever, colds, tonsilitis & frequent fainting spells) but as a future nurse I know how to treat my own sickness yet I need someone to take care of me, Thank God my mother's here, she attended to all my needs. Yet I'm emotionally ill too and it's much painful than any sickness imaginable. It's an inexplicable pain that is beyond what I can bear, even though I can smile and kid around, there's a mask that's been concealing the sadness and hopelessness dwelling within me but after today's blessed mass, I was able to regain myself from the slump of despair.
Amidst the heavy rain and my illness state, I attended mass at Edsa Shrine with my mom. There were a few people came to hear the mass, maybe it's because of the weather but I was so persistent to the attend the holy mass for I was in need of spiritual & emotional healing. I was praying to God before the mass started, I was asking for a sign or an answer to the root of my depression and after the mass. God gave me the answer.
Today's Gospel was about two kinds of worries and God's way of answering our questions. The first kind of worry is what we call CONCERN. It's the healthy and good worry. While the other one is what we call ANXIETY, the bad and unhealthy one. I'm the person who worries too much and most of them were anxieties, that's why lately i feel heavy hearted, crying and ended up doing nothing. But after hearing Father's sermon, I felt God answered my question through the mass, maybe not all my questions but at least I now realized that...
God may not answer all the questions that my heart desires to ask but He will answer the questions according to His will/purpose for me.
Being anxious all the time about the people whom I love and even with myself is unhealthy and it won't give me that peace of mind while being concern to them and trusting God's plans for them and me will make my heart feel at ease.
It's okay to worry but worry because you're concern and not because you're anxious.
A lesson learned from today's mass that brought peace to my weary heart.
Whoah such a long journal but I'm writing this to spread God's answer to me and maybe an answer to you as well
Anyways I'll rest again for there is better recovery while sleeping
Thanks for reading God bless!
I'm physically ill (fever, colds, tonsilitis & frequent fainting spells) but as a future nurse I know how to treat my own sickness yet I need someone to take care of me, Thank God my mother's here, she attended to all my needs. Yet I'm emotionally ill too and it's much painful than any sickness imaginable. It's an inexplicable pain that is beyond what I can bear, even though I can smile and kid around, there's a mask that's been concealing the sadness and hopelessness dwelling within me but after today's blessed mass, I was able to regain myself from the slump of despair.
Amidst the heavy rain and my illness state, I attended mass at Edsa Shrine with my mom. There were a few people came to hear the mass, maybe it's because of the weather but I was so persistent to the attend the holy mass for I was in need of spiritual & emotional healing. I was praying to God before the mass started, I was asking for a sign or an answer to the root of my depression and after the mass. God gave me the answer.
Today's Gospel was about two kinds of worries and God's way of answering our questions. The first kind of worry is what we call CONCERN. It's the healthy and good worry. While the other one is what we call ANXIETY, the bad and unhealthy one. I'm the person who worries too much and most of them were anxieties, that's why lately i feel heavy hearted, crying and ended up doing nothing. But after hearing Father's sermon, I felt God answered my question through the mass, maybe not all my questions but at least I now realized that...
God may not answer all the questions that my heart desires to ask but He will answer the questions according to His will/purpose for me.
Being anxious all the time about the people whom I love and even with myself is unhealthy and it won't give me that peace of mind while being concern to them and trusting God's plans for them and me will make my heart feel at ease.
It's okay to worry but worry because you're concern and not because you're anxious.
A lesson learned from today's mass that brought peace to my weary heart.
Whoah such a long journal but I'm writing this to spread God's answer to me and maybe an answer to you as well
Anyways I'll rest again for there is better recovery while sleeping
Thanks for reading God bless!
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just been really busy lately...
but i promise...
i'll come back...
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i'll make it BIG!
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damn she's a CRAZY GENIUS!
and i just LOVE this drawing...
why? because it's from her and it's truly AMAZING!
i also got to chose what she'll draw, haha any resemblance? LOL
just kidding :P
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I'll gr
Please take my boo boo away~!
I'm scarred :(
oh well i have a wound on my face... i hope it heals fast and won't leave a noticeable scar :cries:
gotta live with band-aid for weeks i suppose :faint:
what else
I'm scarred deep within too, a lingering sign of the damage caused by myself and others as well... yes it is healed but sometimes that mark reminds me of the pain again
haaay what a good way to start the new semester... i feel defeated :tears:
GREEN-EYED monster
A green-eyed monster
You may notice it or you don't
It's totally up to you if you'll unleash that monster within
Or stop it by assuring the heart of what it seeks for...
She knows it well that there's an evil beast within but she has a pure heart and will do what it takes to tame that monster inside
She may choose to stay and hold on, silently suffering the wounds of battling the monster within her
Or she may drift away, far away...
Finding solitude and peace on her own
And when that time comes, the green-eyed monster will be there no more
Because she won't feel any love at all.
;p
Drama? I wanted green-colored graded contacts so I
What i feel today
I really feel shitty today...
I think I have bipolar II
:(
I believe i'm the one who has the problem here...
because recently i can't handle stress that much, i break down easily and i'm also highly-anxious
:faint:
I miss smiling genuinely
and
being able to share that happiness I have to others
I wish i can stop my mind from recalling and re-experiencing traumatic & depressive events
I want a peaceful state of mind
and I also want to pass my Oral Revalida Exam on Tuesday...
Lord please help me
:pray:
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"God may not answer all the questions that my heart desires to ask but He will answer the questions according to His will/purpose for me. " i believe this to be true
"God may not answer all the questions that my heart desires to ask but He will answer the questions according to His will/purpose for me. " i believe this to be true